Thursday, March 31, 2011

Marty is not the man I married.


I have read many articles, listened to many songs, sat and talked to many women who have all had the same underlying cry: He's not the man I married.

Almost every single time I have heard this phrase it has been in the context of a "good man gone bad" throughout marriage. A woman married a man and at the time of the wedding, he was great, dreamy, everything she thought would make her happy. But as time and marriage went on, she realized that maybe the man she thought she married didn't really exist anymore. Where he used to love spending hours talking to her, now she can barely get a "my day was good, how was yours?" out of him. Where they used to laugh, now they fight. Where he once praised and complimented her, now he criticizes and patronizes her. Where she once had dreams & excitement, now she has fears and questions. The truth is, for so many women, the man she looks at today is not the man she married.

I have been thinking a lot about my own marriage and what I have seen over the last 8 months and I've had to honestly ask myself, "Is Marty still the man I married?" And the truth is, no. Marty is not the man I married.

He's so much more. 

He used to not understand why I always had to be "so responsible." He thought saving money was good, but just not a big deal. Now, he's the one saying, "We need to eat at home tonight." He knows more about what's in our bank account than I do. He never buys anything unless he absolutely needs it.

He was never a slob, but he just didn't do a whole lot of house work. Now, he does all the dishes. All the trash. Helps with laundry if he's home while I'm doing it. Will randomly sweep the whole house, clean the kitchen, make the bed, pick up my water bottle I left sitting out. And the crazy thing is, I never once asked him to start doing those things.

He used to not be a big fan, at all, of chocolate & sweet things. Now he loves them as much as I do. (I think this is my favorite change.)

He used to get SO mad when I would not like something he was wearing. Now he genuinely asks my opinion and wants to know what I think before he wears it.

He used to bottle things up and wait until he couldn't be pushed one more inch, then just explode with all kinds of things he was upset about, but I had no clue about. Needless to say, there were some good fights at first. Now, he's very quick to just say what needs to be said and let it go. I can't even remember our last fight. I never thought I'd say that!

He's always been faithful to read his bible, but now I see him reading it more than ever. Multiple times a day.

He used to get nervous praying out loud. Now he does it all the time, out of the blue sometimes, just when he feels led to. And it's so natural.


Since our wedding day, we talk more. We laugh together more. We enjoy each other more. We fight less. We have miscommunication less. He takes even better care of me when I'm sick than he did back then, which was already great. He grocery shops for me. He randomly tells me, "You're pretty," a lot more, even though I normally respond with, "Shut up." Ha.

There are so many more things I could say, but the point is, he's not the same man. He has grown so much. He is a better husband than he was the day we married.

And I say all of this publicly, not to boast. Not to say I'm better than you if your husband is not so great. Not to say he is a better man than other husbands. I just say all of this to say... it is possible. Great guys exist. You can get married and 8 months later not regret it or wonder, "What on earth was I thinking???"

Marty wasn't always this man. He has come so far and left behind so much. Sometimes I don't even remember that he has a past. But when I met him, I saw something in him. I saw a heart that was so open to love, so open to change, so ready to be transformed by Christ. And I fell in love with that heart.

And the day I met him I started praying for him. I knew he was so much better than what he had been living. I knew he had so much potential. And that's what I chose to see in him. Every single day.

At first some people thought I was crazy. They thought we were way too different. The engagement happened too soon. The marriage was coming too fast. But they didn't see what I saw. Now, I think they do.

He's not only blown my mind, but everyone who knows us. I'm probably the most spoiled wife in the world. I know that. Anyone watching us knows that.
But my momma always said, "You're not spoiled. You're blessed."

If that's true, then yes, I am blessed. Very, very, very blessed.

I pray I don't go a single day without thanking God for Martin Summers and may the Lord slap me in the face if I ever take him for granted.

And I pray that anyone out there who has given up, been hurt, left, abused, will find it in their hearts to have a little bit of hope. To remember it's possible.  To try again. To wait patiently and never settle, then pray their hearts out when they think they've found one.

If you're currently married and discouraged by the way your relationship has been, let me encourage you: Encourage him. And do your part. He may very well be thinking the same thing about you. But most importantly, pray for him. Pray for him every time you think about him. Pray for very specific things. Pray with all your heart and see what God might do in your husband.

It's amazing what you can see happen in a person when you pray for them more than you pray for yourself. When you believe with all your heart they can and will be more than anyone else is expecting. And when you, yourself, become the person you should be and love them as hard as you can.

[With all of this being said, please trust my heart in this post. I know some of these can not apply to every situation. And there are some things that nobody knows about, nobody understands, nobody ever sees. I can't imagine the pain some of you experience daily. I don't mean to sound naive or oblivious to "real life". I just want to offer my perspective. My hope. My own, personal experience.]


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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Where have I been???


Wow, it seems like I haven't been on my blog in forever. Spring break happened last week and SO much was packed into that one short week.


  • I did some shopping for myself. I am finally growing out of my clothes. I bought a belly band, a couple of shirts, and about five summer dresses, but no luck on pants.
  • I cleaned out our closets. Right now Marty and I have our clothes in two different room because our house has almost NO closet space. But with Morgan coming, we're going to have to make more room in the extra room for her stuff, so I literally got rid of half of my clothes. I gave them to a couple of friends to use in a garage sale. I can't even tell you how much I got rid of. It made me nervous, but felt so good!
  • I wore an outfit to church Sunday that most definitely showed the bump. MANY people, for the first time, saw it. Everyone was coming up to me and touching me and commenting on it. I'm finally getting more comfortable with that.
  • We had our annual youth retreat! I was so nervous about this. Being pregnant and all, I had no idea how I would survive on cruddy food, no sleep, and 100 teenagers. It was a blast, though! God really taught us some cool stuff and I really formed some great relationships.
  • Our family lost a very dear man. My uncle's father did unexpectedly Friday evening and it was so tragic. My cousin Archie, who is his grandson, was with me on the retreat so I had to tell him and drive him to be with his family. That definitely goes down as one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. We had the funeral for him Monday.
  • Yesterday I was at home in bed all day, sick at my stomach. That's becoming a way-too-regular thing. I'm not sure that I can blame it on pregnancy, either. And I'm getting a little nervous because I'm not gaining any weight yet. In fact, I've lost some weight. Not good, but not just horrible at this stage either. Just pray I can EAT. 

There are about 10 "real" blog posts in my mind. Coming very soon!


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Monday, March 21, 2011

Widows


I have always had a big place in my heart for widows. I think there's just something about the idea of a woman who has spent approximately 50 years of her life next to a man, suddenly living life without him, that just breaks me. I know not all widows are old, not all widows have been married for 50 years, etc. But I think it would be safe to say that most widows in our churches fit this category.

Our church is unique in that it is filled with lots of young families and is very youthful, but we still have a very large population of "old folks." I love that. Over the last few years I've really begun to love and admire these old folks and look for any opportunity I can to spend a little time with them and learn from them.

I've been taking the college girls through James 1 in our bible study and a few weeks ago I just got so convicted.

Verse 22 says this: Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.


And then just a few verses later, the very last verse of this powerful chapter, we read: Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

As I read and studied that one day I just thought to myself, like I have many times, WHY aren't we doing more of this? Why is it that as churches, we can read Scripture so clearly and see without a doubt that God has a very special commandment for us toward orphans and widows, yet have very little action taken to live up to those commandments?

I felt that as the leader of these girls, I had a responsibility to lead them to be doers of this, even if it was just in a very small way.

For our bible study time last Thursday, we met at the home of one of the widows in our church. We met an hour earlier than normal and served them dinner. The girls all came together to prepare lasagna, corn, salad, rolls, deserts, and drinks. We invited a small group of widows and served them dinner, ate with them, then we had our bible study time with them.

It was such a blessing to see them enjoy themselves, and to hear their insight in what we were studying. At the end of the night they kept telling me how blessed they were to be part of that, but I tried to assure them WE were the ones receiving the blessing.

I pray to keep this fellowship up with these ladies and hope we can serve them and meet their needs in even bigger ways.


I forgot to take a picture before everyone left, so not all are included in this, but this was the majority of our group!




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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Gender Reveal!


Well, yesterday I went back to my friend who did another ultrasound to try to see if we could tell the sex. After looking for almost 30 minutes with NO luck, we almost gave up. She had given me a "pretty good feeling" but nothing certain. Right before we were about to call it quits, the kid FINALLY turned in just the right way and suddenly I hear, "There it is! Those are the lines I was talking about. It's a girl. For sure. I'm calling 98%. I don't say 100% until birth. But THAT is a girl!"

I was like whaaaaaaat! She showed me what she was talking about and sure enough, it was all girl!

I can't even explain the feeling that came over me in that moment. I didn't care either way, I just wanted to know! As soon as she said for sure, I just started picturing her. I started calling her by her NAME instead of "the kid." It all became real and I was so happy I felt like I was floating!

Just for the record, no, Marty was not with me. I know that's supposed to be a special time for the husband and wife, but we both wanted to know so bad and he couldn't take off work every single time I went.  So we agreed that I would just go so we could know early and then we could celebrate together.

So I left and went straight to Wal-Mart and picked up a couple of pink infant hats. (Marty LOVES hats so I thought that would be a fun way to surprise him.) I went home and met my friend, Katie, who helped me plan the surprises and get the hats wrapped. We made one for my mom and one for Marty. I knew I wanted to surprise them in person, but everyone else was in another town or it would be hours before I could tell them and I just couldn't wait! So we went by mom's school first because it's right by house and did a quick surprise for her.


Surprising mom didn't go QUITE according to plan because mom wasn't in her office, so we left the gift on her desk and hid outside her office behind this big desk thing until she got back. When she walked back into her office, we waited about 30 second as she asked her office helpers a million and a half questions about who the gift was from, then heard a big "AWWWWWWWWW!!!! YAAAAAAY!!" Then we popped up and went and talked to her.

I wish I would have gotten a pic of her but we were so excited and hurrying to go tell Marty!

So then we ran over to Marty's work to tell daddy about his new daughter! I walked in with the gift and Katie followed right behind snapping pics with my phone! So much fun!


As soon as he saw us, he knew why we were there. He was so red and awkward. He said, "Did you find out?" And I just smiled and gave him the gift.


He made us go in the back where no one else was because he was embarrassed, and SO NERVOUS. He looked like he did the moment he proposed to me!


As soon as he saw the pink hat he smiled and said, "Are you serious???" 
(EVERYONE asked if I was serious. I'm quite the prankster, so nobody really believed me at first. Ha!)


Yep! We're having a girl!!


He was excited and of course, I couldn't focus on ANYTHING the rest of the day! After work we went to eat and celebrate our new daughter, then, like any good parents, did a little shopping! We're trying to be very wise about what we spend money on right now so we only allowed ourselves to get a few things. But just enough to satisfy our urge! 

The Children's Place was a MUST! The prices here were a little high for what we want to pay, but we did find a pair of PRECIOUS jeans 40% off so we grabbed them. They're 6-9 month so it'll be a while, but I couldn't pass these up!


Then we headed to Target. Doesn't he already look so natural shopping for a little girl?? :)


We bought this dress and a couple more little shirts that were on sale.


Then we went to the necessities. I'm going to start buying one pack of diapers every time I go to the store now to keep from having to buy them all at once! Marty thought I was crazy for wanting to buy diapers right now, but I told him he'll be happy one day!



After we shopped, momma was TIRED! I went to bed and he went to work out. But I sure did fall asleep with a huge smile on my face as I thanked God for our little girl, Morgan Noelle Summers.

This was NOT any of the names we were considering and not the one I talked about in my last post about the baby. It's funny how that works. It was a last-minute choice, but we knew it was perfect. Morgan is my maiden name and my whole life I'm dreamed about having a little girl and naming her Morgan. I knew if I didn't do it, I'd regret it one day. And Noelle means Christmas... and, well, no explanation needed there, right? :) I think it sounds really good together and Marty loves it, so once we put it together we had no question.



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Monday, March 14, 2011

Contagious.


I've been thinking a lot about attitudes lately. Growing up, I could never leave the house without my mom saying, "Attitude is everything!"

When I was younger it drove me crazy. Probably because I had a bad attitude. Now, it means the world to me. I get it. And I see it.

Some people are absolutely ruined by their attitudes. They may have great intentions, great talents, and great potential... but they completely undermine their own goodness with a really bad attitude. That bad attitude may be one of nagging, constant negativity, pessimism, complaining, apathy, arrogance, pride, etc. But whatever it is, it stinks. It's a turn-off. And it's deteriorating.

Some people, on the other hand, are enhanced by their attitudes. They may not have the greatest talent or be the smartest, but they have such a great, positive attitude that can do nothing but push them up. That good attitude may look like servanthood, humility, respect, meekness, joyfulness, hopefulness, optimism, thankfulness, enthusiasm, perseverance. Those things are live-giving. They make a beautiful person even more beautiful. They build up. They breathe life into us.

But either way, whether your is ruining or enhancing, it's contagious. There's nothing like being around a person who complains every other sentence then later finding myself complaining a whole lot more than I normally do. Or being around someone who will always find the negative, and finding myself being discouraged and critical of every situation around me. Or being around someone who has little to no respect for someone else and finding myself developing the same thoughts and responses toward that person.

And on the other side of that, there is absolutely nothing like being around someone whose attitude just makes you a better person.

Thinking about all of this has really made me look at myself and my own heart and ask myself what kind of attitude I display. Do people view me as a complainer? A pessimist? A Debbie Downer? Or am I encouraging, humble, positive, and life-giving?

I know which one I want to be, which one I should be. But how? How do you constantly maintain a positive attitude? How do you keep your attitude right?

And that's where this scripture has just been planted and stuck in my mind and heart lately.


That's how. By following the example Jesus lived. By putting others above myself. But humbling myself before God and other people. By denying myself and dying to my own selfish ambitions in order to look to the interests of others. 

If I'm looking at the needs of others, I'll be way too busy to complain about the little things in my life. If I'm taking on the nature of a servant, there will be no room for arrogance or conceit. If I keep my focus on Jesus, I can't help but to be positive and thankful and joyful. 

My attitude is contagious. Yours is too.

Let's make sure the one we have is one worth catching. And let's press on to live out an attitude that reflects the one Jesus himself lived out as our perfect example.


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Thursday, March 10, 2011

This will move you.

For the last 8 weeks we've had our guys and girls split up for a series. This is a vision I have had for over a year now and I just knew that some awesome things would come from it. The only concern we had when talking about this was whether or not the kids would hate us for splitting up the guys and girls for 8 whole weeks.


Turns out, they LOVED IT! The girls ask me every week if we can please stay separated. I'm not so sure the guys are quite as enthusiastic about that idea. (Ha) But, needless to say, this has been one huge blessing.

Every week I had a table in the back of the room with pens and cards and told the girls to feel free to write whatever they want on the cards as a response to what's going on in their hearts and minds during this series. After 8 weeks, here's a glimpse at what I've received. Praise Him!


Take a look and celebrate His work with me!





“Tonight I’m going to call a friend who ‘doesn’t have time for me anymore' and tell her I’m sorry for acting mean and rude.”

“God has helped me forgive and let go of the past.”

“Last week we talked about baggage in our lives that we need to let go of or it would carry over into our marriages and parenthood. So God really placed a friend on my heart that I need to truly forgive after a broken relationship for 9 months. And God has allowed me to forgive her and our friendship to mend and begin to grow again.”

“There is a group of girls at school that hate me. They spread rumors… nasty rumors about me. So I hang out with guys instead, and they make fun of me for that. But, just because they are mean doesn’t mean every girl is, right?! I will trust girls more.”

“I’m going to have more “me” time and think about what to say to my unforgiven.”

“Last Wednesday, I called a friend who I’d been holding a grudge against for a year. We forgave each other and are now working on a close friendship.”

“I got saved!”

“This series has taught me to save myself and value myself. No matter what I’ve given a boy in the past, I can always move forward!”

“I’m working on letting go of things I don’t need… please pray.”

“After tonight, I will be praying that I will be persistent to change the things I can and to let go of worry about things I can’t change and just laugh about them!”

“After a horrible day Tuesday I wanted to cry. And today wasn’t the best either, but after laughing about my toes and letting some things out I feel like a brand new person.”

“I’ve learned not to focus on the things I can’t change but the things I can. I will change them and like myself for who I am.”

“You don’t really know me… but you saved my life last week… 

THANK YOU 

For changing my mind. :)”


“I have fallen MORE in love with God! :)”

“I’ve learned to let go of bitterness and forgive friends who have hurt me, and mend broken friendships.”

“For a LONG time I have been very envious of a best friend at church, but I am now learning to be okay with who I am.”

“I’ve been really struggling with not accepting myself, wanting to look like that person, and hating them for that. Cause they had it, and I don’t.”

“I have never experienced a huge, hurtful, long-lasting betrayal, but now I have a bigger burden for those who have.”

“I used to envy YOU, though pretty sure you knew that. I’m over it. :)”

“Lately I’ve really struggled with trust and building walls up in my heart. And I’ve learned that I have to take a risk of trust with some people and not keep walls up.”

“I forgave my friend that hurt me, and talked to my parents about what they went through. I LOVE YOU! Thank you.”

“I’m struggling with my relationship with my dad and I am putting major walls up. I almost didn’t want to live with him anymore and I’m still back and forth. Please pray. By the way, we’ve talked. :) Love ya.”

“I thought he made it worth it all, and I was wrong. I’m putting that in the past and forgiving us both.”

“I need to forgive my best friend. I’ve had a lot of issues… but I’ve been working on it.”

“I forgive my dad for not coming to the emergency room when I was 3 and busted my eyebrow open.”

“I need to forgive a boy for not treating my heart the way he should have. I am going to work sooo much harder at forgiving him, even though I hurt sooo much and so deeply.”

“I am SO thankful for a dad who loves me and takes interest in my life. I have taken that for granted.”

“Thank you.”

“I had felt abandonment like never before when my best friend didn’t want anything to do with me anymore. God brought us back together and has mended the relatoinship and we are closer now than we were before. God is good.”

“Thank you so much for tonight! I loved it & I didn’t want it to end! I definitely could relate to the lesson!"

“I finally realized that I needed the strength to forgive past relationships, and realize I need guidance for my current, and future ones. And IT FEELS GOOD! Now, I’m praying for them too! I’m so blessed to be in this youth group. Thank you.”

“I broke down a castle full of walls between one of my friends and we are “talking” again.”

“For the first time in my life I have felt a lot closer to God and people in my youth group. I’m not alone with my problems. They are going through the same thing. Thank you to everyone.”

“I’m finally letting go of years of verbal, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse. I’ve learned that forgiveness of those who hurt me was so worth the peace of God. It’s not overnight, but he is faithful. He saved me from myself… my bitterness, my lust, my envy.”

“I’ve had an issue with trusting God and his plans for me… I walked out of here, every week, inspired, encouraged and convicted of my screw-ups. It made me feel responsible and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.”

“I need the Lord in my life. I need him every day to show me the right path to take. I have been baptized, but I feel like I need to take some time to reconnect with God. Pray for me to make this strong connection again.”


“Thanks, 
Thank you for doing this Jordan and everyone that helped. It was such a blessing and I am permanently touched through this!”

“This series has really helped with taking the steps to forgive those who have hurt me or just abandoned me.”

“I have delt with envy. The week you talked about envy was the week I found out the guy I like was going out with someone else. Oh, I envied her. She had him, and I envied her for that. She had something that I didn’t, but then I remembered the week before, I got saved. Then, I felt just like I felt the night I got saved. The best feeling in the world. Hating her for that isn’t worth it. Thank you.”

“These past 7 weeks have made me learn so much about myself. I have been given the strength to let go of unhealthy friends. I have learned to be ok with who I am and I can finally trust people again. I realized that if I’m too afraid to put myself out there then I will be miserable. I love our youth group!”

“God has really placed on my heart since SOAR to begin discipling someone as well as being discipled. This week God gave me someone to disciple and I can’t wait to see the doors He opens!”

“Last week I prayed that I could have a better relationship with my mother and lately we have been hugging and praising each other and we have been having the relationship that we never had.”

“This study has just been such a blessing to me! I mean looking back to the first week I can see how much I’ve grown in Christ and as a person in general. I have really gotten closer to girls I wasn’t even comfortable talking to before. I have learned to be open with others in areas I wasn’t able to before. I just pray I will be able to stay this closer to God even after we are done with this study. I have gotten rid of baggage I didn’t even know I was holding on to!”

“My soul, my soul, magnifies the Lord. My soul magnifies the Lord. He has done great things for me, great things for me!”

“I realized I need to forgive a friend, and trust her again.”

“The I wish stuck with me real hard. My biggest I wish is that I was accepted at church. Now I realize I am.”

“Through this series I have lost a very good friend and I felt VERY betrayed. After we talked in our groups this week it helped me feel more at peace and this has helped me grow closer with TRUE friends.”

“I bawled like a baby. 
But it brought me closer to girls in my youth, and showed me my God can fix the broken.”

“My step-sister turned 18 last week and she left last night and never came back and this talk about forgiving and praying really helped. 
So thanks.”

“I felt God for the very first time! It’s an awesome feeling! 
Thank you so much!”

“I KNOW where to get the strength I need!!!!!!!!!”




Last night, to end our series, I just had a big discussion night. We had 100 chairs set up in a four layered circle and all just gathered together and talked about what's gone on in our hearts and lives through this. I opened the night by reading all of these cards and saying a little something then I opened the floor for the girls to share whatever was on their hearts. They talked. And cried. And talked. And hugged. And smiled. We left there last night with our hearts so full and our minds so ready!

The cool thing about this series with the girls is that for 8 solid weeks I have had no band, no games, no powerpoints, no videos, no cool decorations or logos, no fancy lights... nothing. Just a big, ugly conference room, the bible, and us.

That's all you need.

The Word of God is MORE than enough to bring about healing revival in our lives. I'm so glad the girls are seeing this!

I'm so sad to see this end, but so excited to see the fruit that will be yielded from this time. I'm so in love with these students and so blessed to have a job that allows me to do what I love and am so passionate about!!




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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Don't You Hate It When...


I love lists. I used to blog random lists all the time in high school and they're so much fun to look back on. I've been keeping random lists as they occur to me on my phone and I thought I'd  start posting them again.

Don't you hate it when...

  • You finally find a comfortable position to sleep in and start slowly drifting off when suddenly, you have to pee.
  • You order a burger or sandwhich and don't realize until AFTER you've taken the first big bite that they put onions (or whatever you did NOT ask for) on it.
  • You wake up 30 minutes before your alarm and spend the rest of the day mourning the loss of those 30 minutes of sleep.
  • Your phone autocorrects something for you and you have to retype it & fight the autocorrect like 4 times before you finally get it.
  • You pour a big bowl of cereal only to find there's no milk.
  • You randomly choke on absolutely nothing but your own spit and you can't stop coughing and your face is bright red and everyone thinks you're crazy.
  • You're eating a chip and a piece of it stabs your gums.
  • You find a really cool pair of sunglasses and try them on but can't really see what they'd look like because of that big stupid thing plastic thing right in the middle.
  • You're next in line at the check out when the cashier says, "Sorry. I'm closing." 
  • You get stuck sitting in the left lane waiting for the car in front of you to turn left while the right lane is flying by, almost rubbing it in.
  • You open a fruit cup and the juice goes everywhere.
  • You turn on the radio just as your new favorite song is ending.
  • iTunes can't find the info for a  CD you want to import so you have to type every stinkin track title, artist, album, etc.
  • You spend 20 minutes trying to the stinkin sleeping bag to roll back up.
  • You order something to go and get all the way home before you realize the order was wrong.
  • You put lotion on then can't turn the doorknob.
  • You have absolutely NO idea how to spell a word that you really need to type in a text.
  • You introduce yourself to someone who says, "I know. We've met before."
  • Someone gets you a Christmas/birthday gift and you totally didn't get them one.
  • You say something completely innocent and someone takes it the WRONG way.
  • The one time you really need to just run in and out of the store you see 10 people you know and have to stop and be friendly.
  • You really like someone, and then start following them on Twitter and that totally ruins it for you.
  • You get a snow day... on your already off day.
  • You run into someone you know when you have "girl stuff" in your buggy. 
  • You JUST wash your car and have to drive on a dirty road.


Hope some of these made you smile and say, "YES!!!". And I sure hope I'm not alone on these!


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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Well, it's official...

I have a very stubborn child!

Stubborn. But active.

I don't know about you, but this kid is already sounding a lot like its momma.

I went to a friend today who did an ultrasound for me to see if we could see the sex. No luck on the sex because the child wouldn't open his or her legs! No matter the angle, the kid kept pressing his/her thighs tightly together making it impossible to see any "goods" between them.

I guess I'm gonna have to have a little motherly talk with my child this evening... maybe we'll see more cooperation next week!

But, the bright side is, I still got the see the baby! I haven't seen an ultrasound since I was only 8 weeks, and at the time it just looked like a little bitty tadpole. This time, it was straight up baby!

I could see the head, brain, hands, body, legs, feet, spine, heart, eyes, etc. And my kid is ACTIVE! It was waving, scratching, moving, doing flips, etc. That was really cool to see because there was no doubt about it... that baby is ALIVE. The whole time I just kept saying, "That's inside me!?" It was awesome.

And, if I do say so myself, I have one stinkin cute kid.


This pic is of the head & belly. See where the brain is split? I think that's so cool! Let's hope it has its momma's brains! ;)



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Monday, March 7, 2011

Belly Pics! 14.5 Weeks.


After MUCH convincing, I have finally decided to post some belly pics. This was way  out of my comfort zone, but I'm trying to embrace pregnancy-- all of it. There are still some parts that are just weird to me!

Here we go.

4 months, 14.5 weeks, start of 2nd trimester.



Mommy:

  • Weighs 91 pounds. (Total gain of 5 pounds since first visit on January 25th)
  • Is finally over morning sickness, but has been experiencing some "regular" sickness lately. Stomach bug, blood sugar issues, cold symptoms on and off. It worries me, I don't want to get my baby sick!
  • Is still SUPER tired all the time. A 9:00 bedtime is completely normal these days.
  • Is starting to feel uncomfortable in all but one pair of jeans. This could be a problem really soon.
  • Has been looking and wondering where in the world a 20 inch baby is going to fit in this womb. 
  • Is definitely feeling the hormone changes, but trying not to let them get too crazy!
  • Has had a hard time sleeping and has had some CRAZY dreams. I'm talking absolutely insane.


Baby:

  • Is 4 inches long, about the size of an orange.
  • Weighs about 2.5 ounces.
  • Is moving, kicking, swimming, wiggling fingers and toes like crazy! Although I can't feel it yet, I should be able to in the next few weeks!
  • Skeleton is hardening.



Doc says:

  • To start talking to the baby. S/he can hear me! That's so exciting!
  • That I should start popping out really fast, really soon.
  • So far everything looks perfect!
  • We should find out the sex of the baby VERY SOON! Within the next 2.5 weeks!






We're making progress!
Can't wait to announce the sex!





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Sunday, March 6, 2011

What's in a year?


Isn't it amazing what a year can bring?

I can honestly say without a doubt this past year has been the single best year that I can remember. Marty proposed to me a year ago today.

Since the morning of March 6, 2010 I have

  • Gotten engaged
  • Graduated college
  • Started a full-time "real adult" job
  • Turned 22
  • Gotten married
  • Become a mom

I'm not sure that one single year could possibly be more packed with changes, joys, excitements, unknowns, brand-news all at the same time. It's been a TRIP. Oh my word it's been a trip. There have been SO. MANY. CHANGES. I am a completely different person. My life is significantly different than it was a year ago this morning.

And I wouldn't change it for the world.

This year has brought joy, healing, rest, and peace that I have been praying for and waiting for for 6 years.

It has been a time to dance.


March 6, 2010
We're engaged!

Marty: "Jordan, will you marry me?"
Me: "Uhhh... yeeeeahh"



March 6, 2011
We're parents!



There is a time for everything
And a season for every activity under heaven...

 a time to be born and a time to die,
   a time to plant and a time to uproot,
 
 a time to kill and a time to heal,
   a time to tear down and a time to build,
 
 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
   a time to mourn and 
a time to dance

Ecclesiastes 3




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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

We made it!!!

It's been a while since I've updated about baby!

But... we've reached a very exciting point in the pregnancy! I am officially 4 months pregnant, which means we made it to the second trimester! 

It's so crazy saying that! I remember when I just found out I was pregnant and I began reading all the "what to expect" things. Everything about the 2nd trimester sounded so wonderful. Sickness decreases, chances of miscarriage greatly decrease... so many books have said this is often the best part of pregnancy. That sounded great to me, but seemed FOREVER away.

Now it's here! And I am so blessed!

The first trimester was so blessed. I did have sickness, but it wasn't near as bad as it could have been. I was still able to work and make all my bible studies. I was able to work out a little bit. I had no complications. No bad pains. No miscarriage scares. No negative reactions (at least that I knew about) from people assuming it was "too soon." Everything pretty much went as well as anyone could expect!

Now that we're in this exciting new stage, my heart is just overflowing. There are so many things to look forward to and start working on.

The Room:

Marty and I are beginning to clear out the baby's room and get ready for him/her! We'll be moving the bed that's in there now to the attic this week and shuffling some stuff around to get ready for a crib and other things!

The baby's room is (accidentally) already painted, which is a relief.
The walls are this color:

When I say accidentally painted, I mean that. The summer we got married we spent months redoing the house. This is the color we painted the extra bedroom. Our idea was for it to be a relaxing room for reading, studying, etc. Well, when got finished it dried a little bit brighter than we expected, plus it's the front room in the house so lots of light enters it. Needless to say, we both said, "Baby Nursery." At the time it was funny because we were thinking we wouldn't be having a nursery for YEARS, but we were so sick of painting that we just left it. Little did we know we were painting our child's room who would be joining us in just over a year! (Crazy to think about!)

So we're sticking with that wall color just to make our lives easier. I think we're going to go with black & white as the main colors and then throw in blue or pink accents. I saw picture's of a friend of a friend's nursery that was just like this and I absolutely loved it. If it's a girl, I most definitely do NOT want to be swimming in pink. :) 

The Sex:
We're getting closer and closer to finding out if it's a boy or a girl! This part has been KILLING me. I want to know so bad. My entire life I have dreamed about having a boy. I've imagined myself with a son and have so looked forward to getting to dress a little boy. But lately my heart has been really softening toward little girls. I know it'll be pretty funny if I have a girl, because I am NOT a girly girl whatsoever. But I think I can handle it. :)

I don't know how people decide not to find out the sex. It would make me go crazy. I am so eager to know! 

The Name:
The name.... this has been a journey. Marty and I are so different in so many aspects of life. Including names. There have been a few we've both agreed on but they weren't names that just really grabbed our attention. The ones we each loved, we couldn't agree on. 

But FINALLY I think we have found a name! I randomly thought of this name a couple months ago and I have so loved it, but he wasn't fond of it. I just kept calling the baby by this particular name and letting it get really comfortable in Marty's ear. He's still been resistant, but I think that's mostly just because he's stubborn.

Today we were talking via text and I called the baby by this name and Marty actually replied with, "That looks real good when you read it." So of course I got super excited and said, "Oh so you like it now????" To which he replied, "I didn't say that. ;)" 

Which means... HE DOES!! I'm really excited. We're going to wait until we reveal to sex to reveal the name, though. Oh, and if you're wondering, it works for both a boy and a girl. But I promise it's not a girly boy name, or a manly girl name. It's just... kinda like Jordan. (Don't judge my name.) 

But, like everything else, this is still likely to change. My mind changes daily on everything else, along with my mood. :)


The Belly:
Okay, so I'm still not really showing. If I wear a thin, single layer shirt you can see what everyone is calling, "The Pudge." But for the most part you still can't tell I'm pregnant. Doc says that's about to change really fast though! 

I still can't decide if I'll do belly pics or not. Maybe I'll post one soon? 

People are definitely starting to touch the belly. This is so weird for me. Because there's not really much of a bump yet, it's like they're just rubbing my stomach. But so many people come up  and say, "Okay so I can't see it yet but I've got to feel it! Oh, I feel the bump!" as they rub their hand back and forth across my stomach. Every time it happens I want to flinch, suck-in, back up about 10 feet. But I'm trying to embrace it. Trying to get comfortable with it. They're not rubbing me. They're rubbing my kid. It's not chub. It's baby. 




It's been a fun, blessed journey! This baby has already been such a gift to us. We look forward to these next few weeks just taking off full speed!


"Every good and perfect gift is from above." 
James 1:17

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